Monday, April 23, 2012


I am going to have to say one of my favorite things is coming home, checking my mail and finding this:

(J.Crew Style Guide)

Holy moly, I LOVE JCREW. And of course, unless you have shopped there before, you know that you basically have to sell your limbs and organs to afford it...if you're a jobless highschool student that is. 

Sometimes I wish I was a boy...just so I could wear these things:

But then I flip some pages and I find this:
And I thank the Lord up above I am not male. Gosh darn it, J Crew where do you find these angels?!

^Pretty much the look i'd give you if you are a male and you wear these shoes

Okay, enough of that. Hope you guys get stuff in your mail that makes you happy!

Friday, April 13, 2012

Friday, April 13-2012

This morning I was woken up to the sound of crying and heart break. We got news that my aunt passed away from the most aggressive form of stomach/uterus cancer. She was battling this for about 4 months now and she is now up in Heaven having a huge party. 

 He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.”  Revelation 21:4 

She has been the second person I know to die, and first of whom I was actually somewhat close too. She was such a blessing, in her own crazy loud way, and I loved her to bits. This past summer my family and I went to see her and my uncle in California, and that week that I spent exploring Hollywood and Santa Monica is a time I will never forget. She gave me this nickname that kinda stuck for these last few months and she would call me it when I spoke to her, "Karini". At first I found it really weird, and strange but now I don't imagine me being anything else to her. 

Weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes in the morning. Psalm 30:5

Today has definitely been a sad day, but we know that she is having the greatest time up there. Greater than anytime she could have had here. No more pain, no more cancer eating her up, no more medication, no more surgery, no more hospital beds, no more not being able to much that is no longer existent in her. She was a true blessing to me, and to my family. 

For this God is our God for ever and ever; he will be our guide even to the end. Psalm 48:14

So, go. Go and tell your aunts you love them. Tell your mom, your sisters, your brothers, everyone. It makes you feel so much better. And while you're at it, tell them God loves them too. Because He does. 


Tuesday, April 10, 2012


Feelings = problems
basically, they suck and I don't like them.

Psalms 25:4
Make me know Your ways, O LORD; Teach me Your paths.

Sometimes I tell myself, okay this is what I want and this is how I feel and it'll last a couple days maybe weeks then poof they change. WHY. I don't know why, but they do. It really frustrates me because well sometimes they involve other people and I feel compelled to tell them then they would be mad/sad/confused so I've stopped telling them all together. I always say feelings suck but I don't think people truly understand how much I mean it when I say that. I wish I could make my mind up on something and it be constant. Unfortunately that isn't how I work and I don't know if I will ever function that way. Till then, I need to figure out how to explain this to people.