Merry Christmas Ya Filthy Animals!

Happy Christmas friends. Today is a day of laughter, family, friends, loves, gifts, much most importantly, the one who today is meant for.

‎"For unto us a child is born, to us a son is given;
and the government shall be upon his shoulder,
and his name shall be called Wonderful, Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace." Isaiah 9:6

Our God sent His one and only Son to be born, in a manager and to live among us as human. He came down in the humblest way a King could ever come. We are blessed beyond measure. I am blessed beyond measure. 

Hope today was wonderful for you. 

xoxo

brighter days are ahead.

hi friends!
I have such wonderful news to share. I got my second (and final!!!) acceptance letter today! I got in early decision to my DREAM SCHOOL y'all!! My heart is so happy and I can't believe my dreams are coming true. It's been a crazy past couple months but receiving that letter today made me realize I have my whole life ahead of me.

"And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus." Phil. 4:19

That's a verse that I can remember learning back in my awana days. and it's a verse I have always believed the Lord fulfills. We have such an amazing and glorious Father, friends. I can't say that enough. 

"I tell you the truth, you will weep and mourn while the world rejoices. You will grieve, but your grief will turn to joy." John 16:20

There's been a lot of tears shed lately..either from stress or feelings or movies.... but this verse is so true. Just because I am sad doesn't mean the world is too and just because I am overwhelmed with happiness doesn't mean the world is as well.. so even though I am rejoicing I need to think of others who don't have the same opportunities as I do. 

-Christmas is right around the corner friends.. pray about sponsoring a child to help get them an education. Think about it.. you could make their life. 

xoxo

Nostalgia.

What does that word mean exactly?

Urban Dictionary's definition:

An endless cycle of longing for the past.

Google's definition:

Noun:
A sentimental longing for the past, typically for a period or place with happy personal associations.
The evocation of these feelings or tendencies, esp. in commercialized form.
Synonyms:
homesickness

Okay, well clearly it means you are missing something..or someone. Friends, I don't know what to tell you. Things are changing and I usually embrace change, believe me I'm all for it.. but this change I don't know.. It involves cutting someone out of your life that you saw fit perfectly. It's deleting history, pictures, and the memories that come with that. It's a lot harder then I could have imagined.. but then again I didn't ever imagine doing this to begin with...

"You don't have to cut them out completely.. just forget this part of your relationship with them"

I was told that recently..and I wanted to laugh in that person's face. "Forget this part of your relationship with them?" You're kidding, right? That's impossible. I don't think I'll ever be able to forget this person. This person was so special to me.. I guess they still are, it's just different now. There's been broken trust.. broken feelings.. just broken everything. But with experiences I guess also comes learning. 

I don't know friends.. I don't know what to tell you. All I can say is that as of right now I am trying and that is all I can do right now.

xoxo

.thankful.

thankful for these people and so many more. i am so blessed to have the bestest friends and parents and brother in the world. they make my days better and my jokes funny. 

 i'm also thankful for tradition and my country.

i have a lot to be thankful for. mostly for a God who loves and forgives me every single day. 

have a beautiful day friends.

xoxo

late night 2 am blog post

hi friends, it's been so long i know. i have a lot on my plate, and a lot has changed since my last post.

people change, feelings change, and yet it all stays the same.

as i am rapidly approaching my graduation day i am mixed with feelings of fear and excitement.

i am scared of what lies ahead, friends. what will college be like. will i make a name for myself. will i make friends. will live out the plan the Lord has set out for me. will i lose contact with my friends i currently have today.

and then at the same time i am excited, i'll be in a new town, i'll have a new life, i'll be working towards my career, i have yet to experience so much of life.

one of the things i fear the most right now is leaving my sweet home and going somewhere that is completely different and new to me. i've never known another town that isn't my sweet st cloud. (heh sweet st cloud didn't see that one coming) i just.. i'm filled with such..anxiety i suppose that i don't even know what to feel.

luckily i know my sweet Savior knows what i am set out to do in life. there is so much of the world i want to see. so many people and needs that i want to reach.

{Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am for Your Kingdom's cause}

words that i find myself conflicted with at 230 am. break my heart for what breaks yours..always afraid to ask my God to do that because i know that it'll mean a whole other chapter in my life to prepare for and see lay out. 

i want to kind of jump back to the graduation part.. i ran across a song tonight that i haven't heard in years. it's called "graduation" by vitamin c...goodness the last time i heard that song i was, i believe, in 7th grade.. i remember thinking that one day that would be me. and now it is. may will come so quickly.. i want to remember this last year with a smile. i want to make sure i did things right, i lived my senior year right.. so many thoughts friends. 

xoxo

Last homecoming week!

Well as you know I am a senior this year (Class of 2013!) and it is my last and final homecoming! So crazy and sad. Anyway my school has a homecoming parade on the Wednesday of homecoming week. I walked with my French Club. We passed out Hershey kisses (We were the "French Kisses" heh get it?) and had an awesome time laughing and well..sweating because come on when has Florida ever had an actual 'fall'? Anyway this is just a quick blogpost (from my iPhone! Technology is insane!!) here are some pictures from my week so far!

Xoxo

decisions.

Being a senior in highschool is rewarding, stressful, exciting and nerve-wrenching all at once. You have the responsibilities that come with it (i.e. grades ^, scholarship information, where the heck you want to go, what the heck you want to do) and it is so overwhelming at times. I stayed up late last night registering for ACT/SATs once again and looking into the requirements for the college of my choice (which is flagler, btw). IT SO DANG STRESSFUL Y'ALL.

“Everybody is a genius. But if you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing that it is stupid" //Einstein

That is a quote that keeps me going, well most of the time. Testing hasn't always been a strongship of mine, but I can usually accomplish it with lots of studying and tears. but testing happens a lot, especially during your senior year. You have AP tests, Ch tests, ACT/SAT tests, and who knows what else. Luckily as a senior you can exempt 3 finals and don't have to take FCATs because who knows if i'd be able to handle that. 

 "He who works his land will have abundant food, but the one who chases fantasies will have his fill of poverty. A faithful man will be richly blessed, but one eager to get rich will not go unpunished" Prov28:19-20

What a verse. In times where I am completely engulfed by my emotions of fear and overwhelment (yes i know that isn't a word,shh) I need to think of who my God is. He is Alpha, Omega, Beginning and The End (Revelation 22:13). He brought me this far, surely He will lead me to the end. It's is just the process of the during which is the hard part..

thanks to whoever for reading my pointless rants and emotions,

xoxo